Hi y'all. I've been a bit quiet for some time now, not because anything has been wrong (well, more wrong than usual), but because I've been looking inward. I've had some brilliant days where I've felt powerful and strong and I have had dark days where I've just broken down. I've been kayaking, climbed an extinct volcano, found strength through the support of a befriender and support group and have made the plans that are sustaining me. I have been thinking about the future and harvesting hope. I've been grieving for our little girl and the future we dreamed of. I'm learning a lot.
I haven't felt like writing much lately just because I couldn't find the right words. I write in my notebook when the feeling hits and it's like a release. I sit down and cry when the feeling hits and it's like a release. I close my eyes and daydream when the feeling hits and it's like a release. I'm growing a lot.